"There are no happy endings, because nothing ends"
I don’t know what I’m doing. Fake it till you make it? I have really specific, probably unhelpful definitions of what is real vs unreal. I don’t like those changing. Shit.
Anxiety is super bad.
I need grounding. Like, someone who is earth to just hold me one night a week or at least hold my hands and transfer good energy to me.
I’m so jumpy.
Wtf is wrong with me? I let go, why are things creeping back?